Tested But Blessed

Last few weeks, I was having kind of mental breakdown due to some matters in Malaysia. Crying like heavy rain during usrah. Sampai tersedu-sedu. I was trying to hide everything from my usrahmates but no i cant. I need someone to console me. So, time usrah lah I spilled everything out. 

And recently, (semalam kot) I was holding back my tears but one of my usrahmates knew something was not okay and then she hugged me. And there I was, crying silently in her comforting hug. 

Last month, that night, few hours before I received that sad shocking news, I was having muayashah with my usrahmate. Then I told her, "kita dah lama tak nangis. tak rasa macam Ya Allahhh i need you." i was afraid i'll be robot dakwah. And then, after that few hours, Allah gave me the news and I was crying and crying.

Despite everything that happened, I told my other usrahmate, "Alhamdulillah, ujian ni tak buat kita jauh dari DnT. But, I love DnT even moreee. I think during usrah/daurah/ anything, I find peace and happiness." 

Walaupun di uji, tapi aku rasa tenang. Walaupun sedih, tapi aku jumpa bahagia. Alhamdulillah alhamdulillah alhamdulillah. (I cant describe this feeling but i really feel blessed). Thank you Allah TT

When I was reading al-Quran, I came cross this verse.

Bagi mereka berita gembira di dalam kehidupan di dunia dan di akhirat. 

Tidak ada perubahan bagi janji-janji Allah.

Demikian itulah kejayaan yang besar. 

(10:64)

Buat yang sedang di uji, mohonlah kepada Allah semoga sentiasa diberi ketenangan dan ketabahan dalam menghadapi ujian dariNya. Semoga hati ini sentiasa berlapang dada dan redha dgn apa yg ditentukan Allah. Pasti ada berita gembira di hujung cerita.

Yakinlah, Allah bagi hujan kat kita sebab Allah nak bagi pelangi.